“FEARLESS is not the absense of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death." - Taylor Swift

Monday, November 2, 2015

Flare-ups, Emotions, Self-Care, & Alternative Medicine

I haven't posted in a very long time but it's time to get writing again! A lot has happened in the past year as far as my FAVA journey goes and I'm excited to start writing again. I've been in school and have had a very functional last 6 months as far as pain management goes. I've been mainly using my diet as my primary source of pain management which has been extremely effective except for the last few weeks. I'm learning that with high stress levels in school, I need to practice more self care and go back to some of my older pain relief strategies. The good news is that I have a few blog posts almost ready to go (including pain relief strategies) so those will be posted soon!

I'm currently experiencing a flare-up which has taken a toll on me physically and emotionally. It's been a while since I've struggled so much having this illness and I find it important to recognize that it's ok to not be okay sometimes. Having a chronic illness can be emotionally taxing on you and whoever is involved and it's okay to take a day off just to practice some self care however that is needed. For me that involved taking a few days off from school (very inconvenient since it is mid-semester and have lots of things to do) but it's proved beneficial so far at least.

Normally my flare-ups involve excessive swelling and some bruising/discoloring which inhibit my walking and include throbbing, pulsing pain and  some nerve pain. This recent flare up lasted for more than 2 weeks which was extremely abnormal so I spent the day at Boston Children's with two of my surgeons who have operated on me in the past to find out what was going on. We did an ultrasound that showed that my FAVA hasn't changed much for the past 8 months which was good news in a way but upsetting because we didn't know what caused the flare-up!  I had always had pain in two specific areas in my butt/thigh so had always imagined that those were the only two FAVA spots left since I had the gluteus maximus muscle removed from my amazing surgeon Dr. Spencer, however I never realized that the disease is more complicated than that. The ultrasound showed the FAVA was infiltrated throughout the majority of my tissues in that area and that those two specific masses were extremely inflamed to the point where it showed up like a black hole on the ultrasound. So even if we tried to resect those two masses which might not be worth it due to the recovery, scar tissue, and how difficult they were to find in the past, I'm still essentially full of FAVA in that area.




So here comes the plan. I'm scheduled to meet with Dr. Trenor at Boston Children's in a few weeks to discuss the possibility of starting sirolimus which is slightly terrifying yet I'm excited. My previous surgeons said that they could try to do the procedures again that didn't work for me but I'm not willing to go through that again. So sirolimus is essentially the only treatment left and wouldn't be started until February if I'm eligible. So until February, since conventional medicine hasn't been effective, I will be relying on alternative medicine to deal with the pain so I can be functional. Medical acupuncture, lots of supplements, essential oils, yoga, meditation, a dietitian, and possibly even aromatherapy is on the list so far! Also, stress management is of number one utmost importance so I will be taking incompletes in some of my courses to reduce my academic course load and focusing on my health right now to bring this flare-up down! Multiple studies prove that stress and pain are heavily connected and this is what we believe had caused the flare-up so I know I need to make a major lifestyle change. Talk about a lot of work!

Hopefully I'm eligible for the sirolimus because I can't express the need for more treatment options for this illness. I know I'm not the only one effected because I've met and talked to so many others who suffer but we need treatment options! So this holiday season, instead of buying pointless gifts for others, please consider purchasing something like a candle or T-shirt from the FAVA foundation where some proceeds go towards the foundation for providing help to those who suffer with FAVA. 

http://www.thefavafoundation.com/donate.html 
https://www.facebook.com/thefavafoundation/?fref=ts 

Some good news is that I'm fortunate enough to be doing my own independent research at the University of New Hampshire about the correlation between mindfulness techniques and chronic pain in young adults while co-facilitating a chronic illness support group on campus that I'm extremely passionate about. Also, my boyfriend and I are taking a vacation to Europe in December and January together while we have the chance before I (hopefully) start the sirolimus!

Felt like I needed to end on a hopeful note,

Best wishes #favahugs

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